+ a beau__tiful ho___

September 30, 2005

I hate the times when they go
blurting out vulgarities and tell me,
"Welcome to the working life/reality."
Dohh.

Yeah I just can't face it.
Everyone's just craving for sex 24/7.

I can't wait to start this job. xD

I changed my handphone strap
to the little doggy. xD
At least it reminds me of... x)
It's not a bear okay? Tehee.
The previous strap is wearing off. -.-

I want the cold storage 50cents
handphone chain thingy.
But I don't know how to get it. -.-
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[12:52 AM]]

September 29, 2005

Was playing with my sister's
Nokia 9500 just now. Ahahaks.
Ok, not her's. The school lent it to her
for her New York Trip.

I want to gunbound. =x
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:41 PM]]

I hate my dream today, nightmare rather.

Left the house early to collect my passport.
Took my picture and proceeded to the counter.
But I didn't bring my current passport so
the effort's all wasted. BAH.

Then I reached school at about 1:30pm.
After awhile someone came in and said
the teacher would be late - 2:30pm.
This is the 6th class and she's late,
for the 6th time.

So we went down and I was the only
one eating.
Then we went to post the letter by
registered mail, ok me alone again.
Didn't step in a post office for a long long time.
This is my first registered mail. Ahahaks.

Then we went to class.
The lift door opened and the teacher was
"Ni hui lai le." -.-||

So we did questions and had a surprise "test".
Had to refer to Aidan to get my question done. =x
Plus I taught Jiaying how to do it.
Tadah.

The I went to Orchard,
walked around and I didn't know how to get out.
So I ended up taking an exit, I don't know where.
There was smokers everywhere.
Saw Olinda there too.
Got the "what is she doing here" look.
After awhile I found myself walking through
a cafe/shop/restaurant/whatever.
But it was an exit still.

Then I went to Toys R Us and bought junk.
They overcharged me, so I got my refund.
And off to my mum's workplace,
had to walk around the building because
there was customers inside the shop.

To Taka, then home.
I'm tired and sticky, sorta. =x
Gonna take a bath and come back
till my hair dries, then it's off to sleep!

Training tomorrow. Heh heh.
I can't wait.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[9:15 PM]]

i lurbb nix and angez.

cookies anyone? =DD~

-nIx- @ [[12:27 PM]]

September 28, 2005

Jiaying and me got bitten by mosquitos
yesterday at the toilet.
So if we get dengue, we'll know where
we got it from. =x

I better stay home today before
my money runs dry. -.-

I wanna bath. Hehe.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[2:02 PM]]

September 27, 2005

I woke up at 7.50am today.
Then I started reading the newspaper
so I left the house late.
Arrived 15minutes late - 9.45am.
And the teacher came slightly after that.
So I woke up early for nothing lahs.
Jiaying was caught talking to Aidan and Nick
then the teacher came and started
asking us both a question.
Then we both got into trouble because
we couldn't answer.
I can't understand the questions lahss.
Not my fault.
But I could answer the rest of the questions.

I bought a top.
Those type which looks like a dress
but worn with jeans.
$17.70.
Cuz I like those type of tops
and it's starsss~ xD

Went out to PS with angez.
I bought them coffee cake.
Not the cake as in fridge type,
but cake. =x

She got me a doll. Very cute.
The type you wind up and
it starts playing music. xD

Then we went to Cafe Cartel.
Byon ate his dinner,
we ate cakes. Oh yums.
I think spending $30 there to get
the student card is very easy peasy.
And that card entitles one to 10%!
Ain't it good? xD

Lin gave me something I did before.
Some solve your way out thingy.
Viridan Room. Ahahakss.
Let me complete it first. xD
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[11:59 PM]]

September 26, 2005

I went to school.
Almost brought the wrong set of notes.
Arrived on time.

We had another session of
Double entry. BAHHH.
But it was okay since
I forgot a lot of stuff.
Recap, recap.

We left school and this lady approached us.
She wanted to do a survey on
foreign students studying here.
Me - "We're local."
Lady *turns to Jiaying.
"Oh, I thought you're Japanese."

Went to dhoby to meet them
at Park whatever.
Then back to PS.
Then to Toa Payoh.
Yawn.
I'm tired. xD
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[10:53 PM]]

There are times when I think I'd
be better off being in some poly/jc,
rather than a private school.
CUZ I'M BOREDDDDDDDDD.

Yeah.
I'm studying AFTER the students end school.
Then the shops seem to close so early
when I want to go out after class.
And going online early also means
nobody to talk to because they're
all at school. =(~

But then.. three hours a day sounds nicer.

I wonder what people do when they're bored.
The many websites I used to visit now have
no meaning and no purpose in going there.

There's no game in the world that can hook me
up for more than 2weeks.
And yes, yesterday was my 3rd and last day in OZ.
I gave my 945g to some newbie.
I don't think I'm signing up again because
it's just too much fuss.
Yeah.
Maple sucks. It really does.
You can argue all you want with me,
but at the end of the day, it sucks. Period.
Fairyland was okay. But it's rather like Maple.
I don't know why I played it in the first place.
O2 gets boring when everyone's ahead.
Gunbound's new system just sucks more than
anything. I prefer the older version hundred times more.
But it sucks still.
And there's no point waiting for OZ.
Yeah haha. Talks of F2P since July/August or
maybe even before that.
Haha. I always hear things that sound so real,
nothing in this world is free, at least this isn't.
But I still believe in free stuff in this world. xD

I believe games are only fun when you start
when it first opens, at least you're way ahead
of others and it gives you that good feeling.
Maybe that's why I was so hooked on
Gunbound and Oz.
I like it when it started out,
free from scammers and everyone worked hard
to get what they deserved.

I have a choice to choose what to remember
and what to forget.
But no matter how many times I've said
I give up on them, I still can't seem to forget
the memories.
Thinking back, I think it's stupid to cry over a game.

Yesterday, I turned off the computer at like 3.30am
and even though I was so tired, I couldn't sleep.
Stupid stuff just keep me awake and thinking.

I don't like getting hugged by people I don't love.
I feel so bad, not that guilty feeling but in the sense
that there's no respect for me. Zzz.

I don't like being tracked down because
I'd want my privacy and I feel so tied down
and stressed when I find out I'm being tracked.

I don't like sending out my pictures to others.
Because I don't want some crazy person printing it out.

I don't like people taking pictures without permission.
Yes. Look at the back, stupid freak.

There's so much more I don't like.

How I wish I had a dog/cat to share my problems with.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:09 AM]]

The reasons why I quit,
or the reasons I think made me quit.

`Job-hopper.
`Pay is unfortunately low
`Those I'm rather close to went away.
(So I shall leave first.)
`My hand keeps getting papercuts.
`Feeling rather awkward there.
`I'm always getting them in trouble. =x
Yeah excuses.
A new change in job sounded nice.

So.. 17th May 2005 till 25th Sept 2005.
This is the job in which I stayed the longest so far.

The first time I saw when I woke up was 9.44am,
and lin just messaged me at 10.44am.
Ahahaks.
`fortyfour. xD

Hurhur. Trouble.
Lin doesn't like that job.
At least she still has Loreal.

I'm hungry.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[10:36 AM]]

I found the two songs I like.
One is from Initial D.
I don't like ID. I like the song.
It's got this touch of piano.
I want to learn. =P
Sounds rather easy. =x
Got it easily from my colleague.. ex-colleague.

The second song,
I took so long to search it myself. =x
I only know it had truckloads of
more than something, one after another.
Presenting you the lovely lyrics.

Sweetbox - More than love

I know your dreams
I know your cries
Each breath I've memorized
And I would do anything
To help you win your fight
But it's not enough to make you smile
It's never enough
But what more can I give?

More than love
More than this
More than what's in these two hands
More than love
More than me
But I can't give more than I am...
More than I am...

I see the searching in your eyes
And I feel helpless by your side
So many spaces I can't fill, but God knows how hard I try
You say you need more and I die inside
You always need more
But what more can I give?

More than love
More than this
More than what's in these two hands
More than love
More than me
Cause I can't give more than I am
No matter what I do it's never good enough for you

I'm trying to be
Everything that you need
And I'm barely breathing
And you're still not happy
After all that I've done
All I've become is never good enough for you
For what's more than love
More than love?

Oooh...
More than love...
More than this...
More than what's in these two hands

Tell me what's more than love
Tell me what's more than love (more than this)
What is it that you need (oh...)
That I can never be
Tell me what's more than love (more than love)
Tell me what's more than love (more than me)
What is it that you need (oh...)
That I can never be (and what's more than love)
That I can never be (oh yeah...)
That I can never be.

Tehee. Happy me.
Shall share a few stuff.
http://s18.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2463UZKWW7SEV06NCNPQ8UK981 - grandpa (entertaining)
http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=231712BJ01CEF2NQP28UIEAM6K baggy clothes (-.-)
http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0628RJHQP58JY066PQP95SSW00 hide and seek (lol!)
http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0YKS90OFJNVLG2YASZ7MKSWY8A some korean advert (toughing)
http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1NGLDJ0J5YLGM3ERRRP6GZTZZO - mystery of balloons (quite scary to me =x)

Off for now. =)

-nIx- @ [[2:31 AM]]

September 25, 2005

Today was my last day of work.
I stopped one stop after,
bought egg tarts.
I know those stuff look yummy,
but that's the only one which
I know what it's called,
so I ordered 8.
And they took so long to finish it. =(
But it was finally finished at night. =x

I will DEFINITELY(ty, angez) miss them,
but maybe just as much as
the day Fang and I went to BP. =x

Went to eat prata after work.
Ice cream prata,
mushroom and cheese prata,
plain prata,
ange's I don't know how to spell
muaythaibak?
and chicken.
The mushroom and cheese is yumyums.
Thanks Byon momo!

Val got sent home on a bike. Ahahaks.

I've an affinity with 44 today.
It's now 11:44pm.
I saw 12.44, 1.44, 2.44, 3.44, 5.44,
7.44, 8.44.
And I think I saw 5.44pm on all
the machines with different time.
The nets machine, the credit card machine,
the POS screen and my phone.
Hoho. =)) Happy.

I don't know why nowadays after I eat,
I feel very full and wanna puke. ARrrrr.
Maybe because I just eat at
irregular times.

Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[11:34 PM]]

September 24, 2005

Tomorrow's my last day at work.
I bought hilighter refill even though
the lady there said it can't be refilled.
I'll just give it a try since buying
new ones is
1. A waste of money
2. A waste of plastic
3. Gonna add to my collection.

I ate alot today.
So much that I wanna puke. =x

Yesterday my hand was itchy
so I went to the OZ website
and decided to sign up for the 3day trail.
Tadah.
So here I am in OZ, tobbing.
I have to before I gain interest in it again.
I'm a tobber~

Sleepy. Hrms.
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[8:08 PM]]

September 23, 2005

Okay. I declare myself broke.
That means I'm a broke-r.
Jiaying doesn't like me using
the word broker cuz I'm not one.
I spent $74.60 on my card.
Out of which $52.20 was mine.
All in a days work.
I'm an Esprit fan today. =x
`Esprit black bag - $19.90
`Esprit beach blue bag - $9.90x2
`Esprit shirt - $9.90
`Some art pulp thing +
its tweeser set - $12.50 x2

Exclude the food and all. =x
The art thingy is very cool.
Saw the person demo-ing at
Artfriend. It's some fibre thingy.
Looked nice so I bought it.

I gotta stop spending before
my bank balance goes empty.

I finished my little project at
2.30am this morning.
I think it took 5-6hours in total.

BROKE-Rr.
Okay I have to work tomorrow.
Byebye. Tv time.
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[9:40 PM]]

September 22, 2005

Do you know the meaning of casanova?
I'm quite dumb so I couldn't really
understand the defination of it.
I went to thesaurus.com instead.
And what did I find?
Wanton. LOL.
Made me think of wanton mee?

wan·ton ( P ) Pronunciation Key (wntn)
adj.
Immoral or unchaste; lewd.

Gratuitously cruel; merciless.
Marked by unprovoked, gratuitous maliciousness; capricious and unjust: wanton destruction.
Unrestrainedly excessive: wanton extravagance; wanton depletion of oil reserves.
Luxuriant; overabundant: wanton tresses.
Frolicsome; playful.
Undisciplined; spoiled.
Obsolete. Rebellious; refractory.

Yah okay, blame my low command of english.
I want to dye my hair and I most probably will. xD
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:24 PM]]

Oh yums.
Went to bugis.
Jy and me forgot about the $15 thingy.
It wasn't there anymore.
So I went to Bugis Village.
Couldn't find the white watch I want. =[
Walked around Bugis Junction,
Sasa bought mascara.
Then we went to Old Chang Kee,
then to school.

Today's lesson was fine.
We were very noisy and our table,
the messiest among all.

Then after class we had massive photo taking
session among ourselves.

Then I went back to Bugis.
Bought two skirts at Bugis village,
then we walked to Dhoby.
Massive girls' photo taking
at Dhoby's toilet.
Ebase-d, Sasa-ed and Spotlight-ed.
I got what I needed! =D
Got Swensens Ice-cream x5
and a bottle of mineral water.
Total $20.95.
I used my coupons, Val paid 95cents. =x

Then we walked to Somerset with
dripping ice cream and sticky hands.
And MRT-ed home.
What a fruitful day. ^^
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[11:05 PM]]

Like I'm f..king intrested in the show.
I turned my head to realise the tv
switches off when I turn my head to
the tv and turns on again when I face
my computer.
All the work of the bitch who threw
the book at me.
HAHA.
So I decided to turn back and forth.
Now she muted it.
No, I'm not interested in the tv.
I'm just amused about how free
she can be.
I'm not the one watching, she is.
I can at anytime empty the tapes
so she'll have no excuses,
or maybe I'll just snip them so she
can't watch her tapes no more.

After a few cycles of it,
she went to her room to get a mag.

I still remember her scolding me something,
and I made an avatar out of it.
Copyright © 2005 nIx

I don't see anything nice in being vulgar.
Not hip, not cool, not something nice to show off.

I'm not a weakling.
I'll learn to fight for what I want.

Yeah. Maybe I'm just venting my anger
on someone because I'm feeling shitty.
Meeting Jiaying tomorrow.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[12:02 AM]]

September 21, 2005

I can be a bytxh when I want to.
Especially when I waited this long
just to watch my tv.
She didn't want to record any show.
So I ended up snatching the control.
And she hurled a book at me.
Haha. Bytxhes.
Tv time.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[9:31 PM]]

One problem down.
Got called to go down on the
29th Sept for training.
Bye bye old job.

Also, Val, Lic and Lin got the
$60/hr job.
Much higher than mine but
that's okay. =) I can't work everyday.
Congrats.

Another problem still there.
I supposed I created it. Hah.

Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[7:00 PM]]

No school today.
I woke up very late.
Had a dream/nightmare.
I don't know how to classify it.

But all I know is I woke up at least
thrice.
Once, to see my sis sitting on my cube chair,
twice, to get around to walk and back to sleep,
and lastly just awake in my bed.

I set my alarm at 9.25am but I woke up at 1+pm.
Reason being I wanted that dream/nightmare
to continue.
There was no ending to it though.
I woke up because I felt I was sleeping too much
and I was hungry. +.+

If only I was that smart.

Contemplating if I should study today
or start playing O2.
It's getting boring. =[

Maybe I should go out and waste some money today
because I'm feeling so .....
I'm sick and tired of ~~everything~~ almost everything.

I can't wait to go to school tomorrow
and see the lady opposite the road
wear the same green top and black bottom.
I wonder if she ever washes her clothes because
everytime I go to school, I happen to see her
in that very same clothing for
the past 2-3weeks. I swear I'm not lying.
My classmates can witness it for me too.

Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[3:08 PM]]

September 20, 2005

Today was one of the best lessons ever.
I don't mean the teacher teaching.
2-5pm was rather horrible.

I decided to sit next to the wall for today's
two lessons.
Listened to mp3 on one ear and paid attention.
I didn't even get a single comment from Nageb.
What an accomplishment.
Aidan got caught talking like 10times in T5
and twice in T4.
But of course there's a price to pay.
My mp3 went from full batt to none.

Once again, the teacher was late.
Two times and this is just the 3rd lesson.
I didn't do T4's homework and all those who
didn't had to write their names down on this
piece of paper.
Jiaying and I wrote Melody and Lynn. =p
Whoever whose names repeat the most
gets to be invited to her house for tea. HAH.

So I got bored during class and calculated
that my collection of Lipice alone is worth
$41.10 at market price.
Add the others I bought and it'll easily
be worth around $55-60.

Went to my mum's "workplace" after work
and we went out after store closing.
So fun. AHahaks.
We spent like.. $50+.
$2.50 for takeaway food.
$2 on the $1 machine at toys r us - TOTEM KEYCHAINS.
$10 on a very cute shirt. xD
[[I'm still a lil' kid. =x]]
$11 for dad and sis's takeaway food.
$2 on a nailpolish.
And I made her top up my ezlink. $20! =x

Okay. So I already did my homework for today.
No class tomorrow. Wohoo.

O2ing now. xD
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[10:24 PM]]

September 19, 2005

You deleted/block me and now
you want me to add you back.
Hee haw, donkey(ass).
I'm not at your command,
neither am I gonna let you
bombard me with words people
with high sex drive 24/7 use.

I woke up close to dead.
Was stoning in class,
on the verge of sleeping.

Transport to and fro was horrible.
I listened to my mp3 till I slept
and woke up in the middle of the night
to find very soft whisperings by my ear.
Realised I left my mp3 on.

Tomorrow is gonna be hell.
I guess I didn't get the job.
Oh how can I quit? =[
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[10:08 PM]]

September 18, 2005

Yesterday, I witnessed Val's tortise
attacking, biting, shredding and devouring
a fish. Like.... stupid turtle.
Yeah, I tonned at her house
and I slept the longest (I think).
Was super tired from work and
had to work the next day.
Her room was a little too cold
for me to take it so I went out
quite often.
Slept at her sofa in the end.

Lots of mooncake today.
Mum's cooking noodles for me now. =x
I'm hungry. Haha.

Just back from bathing.
I dropped my lipbalm at Val's house.
Had to drop by Watsons to buy a new one.
So.. that adds to my collection.
2x Lavender
2x Apple
2x Lemon
1x Apricot and Peach
1x Strawberry
1x Blackcurrent?
I'm a lipice collector. Haah.

Had papercuts at work today.
Super painful.
One came about when I was counting
change for a $1000 note given.
The other, unknown.

Happy birthday Pingss dearest~

Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[10:52 PM]]

September 16, 2005

I went for a job interview today.
Hope to get it.

I just got sick of my previous job. -.-
And not getting the pay makes me fed up too.
Job hopper.
Yaya.
Even if I don't get the new job,
I'll still be quitting. Soon.
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[10:47 PM]]

September 15, 2005

Sleepy.
Going for job interview tomorrow.
Yah. Drag me~

Walked at Somerset and Orchard today.
My legs ache. =x~

Class was very....
"when's break" again. =x
Self-extended break and we went back
to the class with milo.

"Coffee from Arabia is it?"
Yeah, fly there and back.
We're becoming regulars of the school's
cafe already. Ahahas.
Going there every single break.

Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[11:01 PM]]

September 14, 2005

Ahahaks.
I found out I have terrible attitude
when I don't get to watch tv when I want to.
Okay whatever.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[9:12 PM]]

September 13, 2005

Morning school tomorrow.
Rrrrrrrrrrr.
Have to read my T4. Hur.
I rather follow the textbook.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[10:44 PM]]

I'm so sleepy.
Oh crap.

I managed to stay awake and pay
attention to nageb today.

And we only got one comment,
"You girls noisy like insects, you talk
some more I sew your mouth then you know."

The surprising thing he did today was
speak hokkien.
Annie came in late.
"Gui diam liao.. Wa ka li kong.. etcetc"
I tell your mother, father blablabla. (In hokkien)

We just kept laughing. -.-
Had bao during break.
We went back on time k? xD
Ended at 1pm.

Went to the 2nd floor tution looking
air-conditioned place to eat lunch.
Back to class.
It was supposed to start at 2pm
but she came at 2.30pm.
Nice start.
Then she started drawing on the board.
"Cost accounting is fun" in bubble form,
then she started drawing eyes and legs. -.-
And she reads from the text,
her answers somehow contradict
what I learn in T2
and everything just started out wrong.

We went for a break and
waited outside the room till she came
out to tell us break time over.
Going in is like... Arrrr.

I just hope it'll turn out to be
like Miss Siu's situation.
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[7:21 PM]]

sick lahh.
I havn't got my pay.
It's already 3days over.
$100 isn't too much.
Plus another $100 for this month.
I think I should quit.
I've got no time for.....

Happy birthday CY. =))

I want to bytxh a lot now.
But she's forcing me to sleep.
Naggy.
She's just unlucky that she stepped on my tail.
Keep asking me to switch of the computer
when I'm not done blogging.
And I definatly can't type in front of her.
No sense of privacy.
I have practically no privacy.
She goes on to any search engine and hunts
down my blog.
Like why the hell do you want to intrude in my life
when I'm already seeing you close to 3/4
per day in average for my whole life.

I don't even do anything that would possibly
make a parent worried about their child.
Yah. Okay find. Mood swing.
Whatever laa.

Gonna have to see Nageb and a new teacher
in the morning and afternoon.
I hope it ain't gonna be boring like yesterday.
Oh nageb, nageb.
I chilled.
12.44am. =))
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[12:44 AM]]

September 12, 2005

Lalas.
Today's class was totally the same
as T1.
Arrived late and within 5-10minutes..
Me : "When's break time?"
Double-entry.
I'll most probably remember it for life.

During break, we went to the comic shop
opposite school. Jiaying bought maple cards.
That crazy girl bought 4cards at $10.50 each.

I'm only playing O2Jam for xmas memories. xD
and today, to help lin level up.

Do you notice that in Grow's advertisment,
the Giraffee doesn't have a body?
Yeah. Cuz when it moves it's end of the neck
sometimes show.
Only noticed it after my sis told me.

Disneyland is opened! Woohoo.
I want, I want.
But I've been to the others.
Wonder what difference is there. -.-
Tv~
Then I have to holepunch my notes
which I should have done long ago.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[9:29 PM]]

After I blog, I'll start to change for school.
Been having dreams the past few days.
Today's was going to Genting.
And another.. started out as a dream,
but somewhat turned into a nightmare.
I'd rather not mention it.
Don't wish for it to happen. Heh.
Okayss. Gotta change and go school.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[12:40 PM]]

September 11, 2005

Lalas.
It was work till 6pm.
I was so bored I decided to
can I help you to almost
everyone I walked past.

I got $50 bird note from work.
It's so pretty.
Yah. So there goes my $50
which I'm gonna keep rather than spend.
Nice hobby.

Met angez and byon
at cityhall.
Waited for them to close their booth
then we went for dinner.
Curry chicken noodles.
The first thing I know after picking
up the chopsticks and taking out
the noodles was that my sleeve
had 4blobs of curry.

Went to Swensens to eat
Earthquake. xD
I used vouchers haha.

Byon : "Okay then I bu ke qi."
Byon : "Lets order this,
this, this, this, this."
Ange : "Okay lor, if you cannot finish,
you pay, if can.. etcetc."
Byon : "Give me 3hours."

Byon's tablet thingy is sooooooo CUTE.
Yah. He had to rush out of the train
because of me.
I was so engrossed in playing with
the drawing stuff that he had to call
me a few times. =x

-.-
Beetle's coming over to work.
I supposed they invited him to. -.-

I'm so tired and sleepy.
Went offline at about 11pm yesterday.
Wasn't asleep till 1+am.
Then I had a dream.
And I heard.
"Okay, everybody... etcetc."
And I woke up only to find that
someone was talking on a loud hailer
downstairs near the busstop.
[[I confirmed with my sis.]]
But at that very time my dream
was in sync with it.
I forgot the dream though.
Tadah. Woken up at about 3am by them.

Tired.
If I can't speak tomorrow,
I know the exact reason.
Sore throat. =s
Off for now. =))

-nIx- @ [[11:52 PM]]

September 10, 2005

Lalalalalas.
Went to work the whole day.
Oh gosh..
My legs are aching. =[
Calvin fell down and told me
his uniform has blood all over.
And I'm 99% sure it's MY shirt. -.-
Got Swensens vouchers.
I don't know how come 3M gave
so much.
At least 3collegues took 3x
more than what I have.
But I don't care. xD
So tired.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[10:53 PM]]

September 09, 2005

Ahaha.
Down with headache. xD
Really killing me.
Gotta work tomorrow. =s
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[8:54 PM]]

Wondering when it will stop.
I'm tired. xD
Still don't this this is very user friendly
but I'll just make do with it.
I don't like the dash there.
I want it before my link.
And oh - my username is part of the link.
Yadayada. I just don't have much to type here.
Oh well.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[12:44 AM]]

Gosh I don't know what the world's becoming.
Oh well.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[12:24 AM]]

September 08, 2005

Momo.
I want a monster. Hah.
I'll name it Momo.
It'll be all mine.

Ohmy.
They did this DIY musical thingy.
I also want.
ARggh. Momo~
Ding dong, ding dong~
Crazy ass.

I decorated my wall.
But I ran out of resources.
Don't know where my CD & it's boxes went.

The tv show's rather entertaining.
How come there's warm water there. -.-
And they can swim there. Wahhh.

I still want to go Korea more. xD
Off for now. =DD

-nIx- @ [[8:22 PM]]

I lost interest in games.
Hah.
Was at the MRT a few days ago
and I heard some guys talking
very enthusiastically about
some game.
All I did was *rolls eyes.

I don't even think I'll be waiting
for OZ. Lol.

Life's bored but whatever.
It takes a very long time
to kick bad habits.

It seems everytime ange has
weird dreams, I have mine too.
I still remembered a little
when I woke up.
Now I don't. =s

Ah. Being able to blog makes me
feel happy.
Didn't have much chance to blog
the past few days. Heh.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[12:45 AM]]

September 07, 2005

Now that my exams are over.
I can finally pour out what
I've been thinking of.

I got so discouraged before
the exams.
I just didn't feel like continuing.
Don't know why.
I wonder whether this is the right
choice, right route, right everything.
Am I going to spend my whole life
working with numbers and whatever.
Am I ever going to regret?
I don't know.

All I know is,
I did my best during the exam.

But I still don't know if my heart
is in this course or the other.

Whatever it is,
if there's another exam,
I'd still be willing to
give up my time and concentrate
on my studies, whatever course it may be.
The rewards for studying is just..
speechless.
How I wish I knew how it felt from the start.

Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:35 PM]]

Kill me.
So sad.
88%.
Which means 6wrong questions.
Plus 3questions which I never
saw in the 250+50+50+50 questions
I was given and did.
And guess what?
They were the same.
C = A/B
A = S/B
E = S/A

(hours)
A - actual
B - budget
S - standard

Usually they'd give the hours
and ask you to calculate either
A, C or E.
But no.
They gave me.
C = 108%
A = 106.8%
What is the percentage of E.
I skipped it.
And what more?
The same question came out 2qns later.
This time.
They give
A = etc%
E = etc%
What is the percentage of C.
And 3-4questions later,
they give me.
E = etc%
C = etc%
What is the percentage of A.
Like. What?
Three questions asking the same stuff
and I never saw before,
never attempted before,
never heard of before.

Thank God for my maths.
Eg.
If A = S/B, E = S/A and C = A/B
And they ask you to find C.
I took.
S/B divided by S/A
=S/B times A/S
Cross cancel the S
And you get A/B.
So you take the percentage of
A divide by E.

Then they give me a question
which I find all 4answers
not applicable.
So I just picked one.

Crap.
How I wished 9th Morning wasn't
full so I could have taken that exam
which I intended to.
Didn't want to take 9th night because
by then everyone would be reliefed
that the exam is over while I'm still
struggling away.
Oh well.

No point crying over spilt milk.
They better give me a cert stating 88%
and no less.
I'm already so -.- they better not
make any error in it.

Ayye.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[10:45 PM]]

September 06, 2005

You know I friggin can't stand
language like euu and whatnots.
Was just hurled vulgarities
(okay fine, online.) at in
a message forwarded to me in friendster.

Hello? You quit school, you have no exams.
I have exams to study for.
I'm killing myself, you're not.
I'm not as free as you right.
Oh damn. Continue accusing me.
I don't just talk to one person in class,
I still talk to others okay?
And I'm friggin not close to you at all.
Just because I've got the same name
as your ex. So what? SO WHAT?
Do I look like her too? Hahaha.
Argh. Oh you mean I'm as close as
she was to you because I've got the same name?
Yeah. I'll get out of your sight if you want to.
In fact, I think I'd better. HAh.
You're weird. I better keep my distance.
Oh what's the big hoo-ha.
At least I won't have any more calls
coming in at around 2am while I'm sleeping.
Bugger.

On a happier note.
Today Jiaying and me got into a lot of trouble.
He was talking about groups - informal and formal.
Blabla.
`1
"These threee girls are like an informal group.
They come together, go out also together."
*Walks to us.
"These four at the front. Always talk together."
`2
Example of people in a team.
*Walks towards us.
"Etc, etc. People who talk alot and give
suggestions. Like this two girls. Etc etc.
Then they will be the ones that laklfkjasldfjkad
(makes a lot of noise)."
`3
"Etc etc.. Correct ma?"
Me : "Ma"
Jiaying : "Ma, ma, ma."
*Walks to Jiaying.
"You copying me? I (can't remember what)
you then you know."
`4
Me : "Eh you take my pencil ah? Okay."
*Walks over
"You girls better stop talking."
`5
Talking about different types of people
in a team. One of them is classified as
unpopular ; likes to be given extra work.
Jiaying : "Must put one mad behind that."
*Walks towards Jiaying.
"RRRRRRRRRRRrr."
`6
Talking about different people in team again.
"There's this person who's usually one who
seperates people who quarrels etc ; usually quiet;
absence will be noticed by members.
For example, if Alex is not here, I will
ask where is Alex"
Me : "Must call 995 cuz he never come."
[[Last week's joke]]
"Then if Aidan is not here also,
I will also ask about him."
*Walks to us.
"But if this two girls don't come,
I won't ask what happened to them.
Blablablabla."
`7
We were talking.
"One more time you talk before I'll kill you
I will...."
*Drives his pointer into the wall.
I didn't know what he was saying because
we kept laughing away from the start.
`8
"How to say why you sleep in class blablabla"
Students : "etcetc."
"Xue shen ni wei she me shui jiao alskjfslfj
(starts blabbering nonsense.)

We kept laughing about the Rrrrr.
I just couldn't help it especially
everytime I turn to face her.

After class.
"Ehh faster go, faster go. Later he come
here and talk to us. Etc, etc."
*Packs as fast as we can.
"Eh waitt. Attendance!"
*Goes to sign attendance and runs out of class.

We better make sure we pass this class
so we wouldn't have to retake. =p

T2 tomorrow.
I want the markssss.
Argh.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[9:33 PM]]

September 05, 2005

I have this painful ulcer
in my mouth that hasn't gone
away after so many days.
Don't even know how it came about.
Decided to use toothpaste.
Hurts like a bytxh.
But I suppose it works.

There's so many mixed emotions in me.
I don't know how I should actually
be feeling about them.

-The exams are day after tomorrow.
Should I be happy or scared?

I watched the nurse show on Sat
and I almost cried. Bugger.
-The course might open in October.
I wonder if I'd ever regret or
leave the course halfway.
ARgh.

There's other too but I'd just
keep it to myself.
Gosh.
Help me.
I finished reading my whole textbook.
Will have to re-read,
at least those which I don't understand.
I have to study/attempt questions.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:43 PM]]

Ange wants to watch the 3 lil' pigs play.
Crazy girl.

"Recommended for children four years and above."
Like. What?
I collected my cert. No problem with it. xD

I was famished so we went down
during break time to get bread
to eat at the cafe below.
Jiaying was removing the skin
off her bao -
"looks very dirty, like lizard skin"
-few moments later-
"LOOK ACROSS THE ROAD OMG THERE'S
A LADY THERE."
"Where where?"
"Above the __ there."
"EwWww."
"I think I lost my appetite."
"It's a guy or girl?"
"It's a guy."
"No, it's a girl."
Etc, etc.
Freaking disgusting. Urrgh.

It turned out to be a guy in
blue underwear, standing on a
double decker bed with the
window wide open.
ARrgh. So disgusting.
Stood there for like 3minutes or more.
Actually more because we had a 10min break.
Then he had this underwear on a hanger
that was in front of him so his head
was covered. Disgusting.
After that
Jy : "Eh see his head his head."
*Sees someone closing window.

After class the windows was opened again
and this time there was a girl
standing by the window sms-ing.

Was waiting for the bus home
and I was chocked with ciggy smell.
Stinky breath smokers.
They reek of horrible smell too.
`anti-smokers.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[6:46 PM]]

September 04, 2005

Making Sandcastles

A little boy is on his knees scooping and packing sand into a bright blue bucket. Then he overturns the bucket on the surface of the beach and lifts it. To his delight a small castle tower is created.

All afternoon he works, scooping out the moat, buiding the walls. Adding bottles, leaves and ice-cream sticks to make bridges and corridors.

At the same time, a man is in his office. At his desk he shuffles papers into stacks and delegates assignments. He cradles the phone on his shoulder and punches the keyboard with his fingers. Contracts are signed and much to his delight, a profit is made.

All his life he will work. Formulating the plans, forecasting the future. An empire will be built.

Two builders of two castles. They have much in common. They shape things. They see nothing and make something. They are diligent and determined. And for both the tide will rise and the end will come.
Yet that is where the similarities cease. For the boy sees the end while the man ignores it.

At dusk, as the waves near, the wise child jumps to his feet and begins to clap. There is no sorrow. No fear. No regret. He knew this would happen. He is not surprised. And when the waves crash onto his castle and his masterpiece is sucked into the sea, he smiles. He picks up his tools, takes his father's hand, and goes home.

The grownup, however, is not so wise. As the wave of years collapses on his castle he is terrified. He hovers over the sandy monument to protect it. He blocks the waves from the walls he has made. Salt-water soaked and shivering, he snarls at the incoming tide. "It's my castle," he defies.
The ocean need not respond. It knows to whom the sand belongs...

-nIx- @ [[11:34 PM]]

Somehow getting good marks
seems a little weird to me.
Like. What if your employer
sees you scoring well and
not in the other topics?
Will they doubt your ability
in that particular area?

But on the other hand,
if it's all good then all is fine.
Somehow this makes me feel like
I'm being competitive.
Maybe I'd be competing for jobs
with my fellow friends even.

Another thing is once you
see that grades you're getting,
the stress gets higher
as you continue studying.

I wonder if I would, like that lady
give up my social life,
and dedicate all time to study.
=[
The feeling of being so lonely.
Thinking about it is scary enough.

I still see the marks waiting for me.
I ought to study. Lol.
Gonna be very busy the next few days.
I've got classes and I've to study. =[
At least Jia Ying's taking the
paper with me. xD
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:23 PM]]

I finished what I planned
to study till today.
Maybe I'm gonna study
another chapter since it's a short one.

Overtime premium isn't direct
unless those people work to
complete a special request
that requires overtime

I was starving in the morning.
The fridge is more or less empty. =[
Mum offered to buy KFC for lunch.
But I didn't want.
So we had noodles.
But I changed my mind at night,
so we had KFC. Hahah!
Yums.

Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[9:44 PM]]

Look ahead, look ahead.
The reward of studying hard
is just ahead. A few more days!
Bahh.
Don't know if I can complete
everything in time. =s
But I must.
At least chapter 13 today.
I just finished 11.
But I don't understand
absorption and marginal costing
and chapter 9. Bakaa.

And there's nobody to ask.
Because I'm ahead.

Weilian won the superstar thingy.
Ahaha. Rather suprised but still happy.
Seems like my guess of those winners
are still accurate.
The girl in AMI
Taufik in SG idol
and weilian in this one.
Not like I follow the series
but haha.

Oh yeah.
I hope they don't screw up and
give me anything less than 98%
on my cert.
If someone gets 100% they deserve it.
Crappy system read it as 92%.

I have school tomorrow, day after
and 2days after.
And my exam is 2days after.
ARrgh. Crap. How to study in peace.
=(~
Will be prepared to lug my T2 book to
and fro so I can study on the way there
and back if situation permits.
And study on breaks.
Ohgosh. So no life.
I gonna get my life back after the exams.

Speaking of class.
I hate the feeling of being watched
by a pair of eyes whenever I'm
doing my own stuff in class.
ARRgh.
Get your freaking eyes off us.
*feels shivers down my spine.

Better pay attention in all
classes from now so I have less
trouble understanding what the text says.
Just 3hours per class.
I think dimples are cute. HAah.
I gotta study.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[4:16 PM]]

September 03, 2005

Yaa. My neighbour is very considerate.
Gets into quarrels with I don't know who.
Quite frequently also.
One of the reasons why I lost my
concentration to study -
I was trying to record them. LOL.
I sound so evil.
But hello?
He slammed his door thrice.
Super loud and powerful.
And it feels like some earthquake.
The first was expected.
Cuz it's so common to slam doors
when quarreling.
The second sent shivers down my spine.
The third was the loudest and
I could feel the impact of my poor floor.
Made me jump.
Terrible.
Could feel the effect on my floor thrice.

I must finish page 166 today, till Chapter 8.
Must, must.
Cuz I still want to do questions
and re-read the text if possible,
at least the summary of every chapter.
And it's all text so far.
There's gonna be killer equations
towards the end.
And it just keeps getting tougher.
Lalalas.

I just realised it's 16chapters
instead of 14 which I thought it was.
Which means I have to finish 9,
or at least end halfway through it.

Motivation to study isn't too high
but the thought of the results.
4.02pm now.
Must go by 4.15pm.
Still have other webs to browse.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[3:51 PM]]

Planned to study T2 after
I turned off the comp and
go to my room.
But I felt tired.
Gave myself a 15min break
which ended up close to 1-2hours. -.-
Then I woke up and went to J8
for lunch. Pasta mania.
So filling. xD
Was actually supposed to go
Sakae Sushi or food court.
I just wanted to reward myself. =x~

Hope to read till end of
chapter 4 which is about page 100.
Chapter 2 and 3 wasn't something
that I needed to read but
I just read for the fun of it.
Quite intersting though.
I know how to use Excel now. HAHA.
(Even though I havn't tried it yet.)
I used it once in the Guides Headquarters.
Didn't know anything about it then.
All I know was I was right click>add row.
Then I realised a keyboard shortcut.
But I'm sure there's one that adds
multiple rows at one shot. -.-

Oi ange! You ~!@#$%^&*
Why offline so early? =x

Nick is crazy taking 2papers
on the same day.
Grats.

Right now my sis is giving me
this weird look on her face
because I'm smiling to my comp.
Why? I'm happy for Nick that
he passed T2!

Speaking of which,
I'm worried for my T2.
I also want the same marks
or better for T2. =[~

Lalalas~
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[12:06 AM]]

September 02, 2005

Ahaha.
I just ate and I'm still very hungry.
Pig. xD
Must be because my breakfast
wasn't that filling ah.

I wonder if T1 has the
whoever top the world thingy or not.
Even if there is, the possibility
of me getting it is like so low. =(
Cuz I already know of people who
get full marks here.
Am sure many people can score full
in the whole world. -.-||

I passed. Super happy.
Lots of weird questions I never
came across through my
500qns from mock exam
and redoing of the revision kit.
Had to use a lot of common sense
and maths. -.-
I think I did a total of like
1000questions including those
I re-did.

Congrat me!
98%
49/100.

Walked all the way to the MRT
just to find out I left my wallet
at the computer room. Baka. -.-
Went back and was so anxious
because I couldn't see it.
But I managed to find it
in a hole where the computer
screen was placed in. =x

Gotta start mugging for T2 already.
Oh me oh my.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[1:30 PM]]

September 01, 2005

You guys reading my blog from here
better not change my settings
or delete any post ah. xD
Thanks.

-nIx- @ [[6:56 PM]]

I just saw that other countries
use watches to scan on the bus, etc.
I also want one. =x
But I want monthly concessions more.
Gimme, gimme.
I decided to re-read T1.
Finished the first chapter
and 99% of the stuff seems as though
I just read them yesterday,
although it's already probably 5days.
Fresh. Haha.

Tomorrow I better wake up on time.
Exam is 10am to 12pm.
Gonna lug my T1 textbook there
and arrive early as usual.
Hehe. I get the cheeky feeling
just before the exam because
I'm all ready for it. xD
That is T1 at least.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[6:49 PM]]

They don't seem to appreciate
the fact that I'm studying ya?
Come home ask me?
Waiting for maid to clear blablabla.
Zzz.
I'm studying so hard for the exams
and they expect me to do housework,
immediately.

Before I can finish the paragraph
they start getting angry and
doing the job themselves.
Like what? I'm supposed to stop
on the spot and do it?
Ah ok whatever.
So tired, so tied down so upset
I just broke down and cried.

I started on T2 for the past two days?
But I'm still at chapter 1. -.-
Computer stuff.

I finally know how to do T1's
bank reconciliation and all.
Stupid.
I don't know how come I thought
I read through every page in
the textbook but miss that out.
Anyway I was about to give up
on that topic but I decided
to read the chapter.
And can you believe it?
One small diagram made me
understand the whole crappy
logic to solving the questions to it.

Adjustment to cash book.
Add
Understatement
Receipts(standing order, direct debit)
Less
Overstatement
Payments(standing order, direct debit)
=Adjusted cash book.

Balance as per bank statement
Add uncredited cheques
[[Outstanding lodgements]]
less unpresented cheques
[[Outstanding cheques]]
=Balance in cash book.

Seems so simple.
Yet when I'm attempting the questions
I keep getting different answers.
Now I know. AHh.
Baka.

My exam is tomorrow.
I've got 200questions more.
But I think the 500 I did is enough.
Shall do those if I can't sleep.
T2 is my priority now.
Gotta finish at least Chapter 1 by today.
Off for now. xD

-nIx- @ [[4:58 PM]]